On the verge of insanity...

Listening to: Carry On, My Wayward Son by Kansas

Ever feel like you're about to go completely insane and your only goal in life is to survive? Welcome to my life. Every single day, I am basically just waiting for it to be over because it's one more day I can mark off my calendar (and trust me, I am!). Wow, I sound depressed. Not depressed—just bored out of my mind.

REWIND.

Let's start that over. Actually, despite the absolute boredom and near-insanity, I've been kind of happy these past few days. I feel...content. (Ummm.. I've been having conflicting emotions, in case you can't tell. Going crazy but being content at the same time. Don't ask.) I'm still working on the whole patience deal, but I think I'm getting a little better...maybe. I don't feel quite as impatient, at least. Hopefully, that's a sign of improvement. Heh!!

So. One of the things I've entertained myself with these past couple of weeks has been reading some of my old journals. That's one of my favorite things, actually. It amazes me how much I've changed and grown in such a short amount of time. I spent most of my time reading through my junior year. Interesting times, that's for sure.. While reading it, though, I realized some things that had never occurred to me before, and gained some new appreciation for how God looks out for me.

Okay, this is the most boring post ever. I'm ending it now.

P.S. I am sick to death of rain. Seriously. I mean, I like it and all, but it has been raining for nearly the entire time I've been home, and I've been home for three weeks. Ugh.

Snowflakes and Cran-Raspberry Juice

God is so amazing.

Just thought I'd throw that out there. I feel like my relationship with Him has been so much better than it was last semester. I guess maybe it has something to do with the fact that I'm more adjusted to college life and stuff like that, but whatever the reason is, I'm definitely glad! He has blessed me so much. A couple of examples...

Example #1: This weekend was the best weekend I've had in a really long time. After 2 weeks of feeling like I was going to go insane, it was pretty refreshing! (Insert random thought: I don't think I like the fact that every semester is going to be different. I liked the people I was with all the time last semester. I don't want that to change.) It actually ended up being a fairly busy weekend, and the fact that it was homework-free just made it even better! (Well, okay--I had homework, I just didn't do it. And I am completely okay with that fact.) I had my first motorcycle ride, my first racquetball lesson, and got to hang out with some of my favorite guys, who I have not seen much lately and have missed a significant amount! Along with plenty of time with the guys, I also had a nice amount of girl-time, so I think it was getting pretty close to being the perfect balance.

Example #2: It snowed today! It wasn't just flurries, either. It snowed pretty hard nonstop from about 10:30am until um...I'll take a guess and say 2:30pm. (It was at some point during my 2-hour nap. Ah, I love college!) It was so pretty, and just made me really happy overall, even if it didn't stick that much. I have to admit, when I woke up to rain this morning, I wondered how great of a day it was going to be. However, I am infinitely thankful for rainboots. One of the things I hate most in the world is having the bottoms of my jeans get wet and having to feel that cold wetness against my legs whenever I sit down. Now that I have rainboots, though, I do not have to live with such issues in my life, and that makes me happy. (You know, now that I think about it, I guess that was really two examples in one... Oh well.)


Anyway, I'm sure I could go on forever with my examples, but those two were the most significant to me at the moment (I like God in the day to day stuff--it just makes me happy and love Him even more!).

Oh, I bought juice today. I've been in the mood for juice lately, so when Kristi and I went to Wal-mart (in search of racquetball raquets. Those things are amazingly hard to find! We were told we'll have to go all the way to Chatt, which is completely ridiculous. Anyway, yeah, we decided to use the same approach with raquetball as we used with pool. Practice makes perfect!), I decided to get some Cran-Raspberry juice. Sooo good. As I headed to check out, however, I realized that I was buying a jug of juice and own a grand total of zero cups to drink it out of. So I also purchased my first cup for 74¢. Gotta love Wally World.

Okay, I think I've rambled for long enough.

Bye.