"The eve of an ending..."

Lonely Tonight

Matt Wertz

6th and Green is a warm place in November
When the air is cold and the leaves blow on the ground
And I don't think that I can even remember
Why it was that I came to this town

'Cause I just want to be lonely tonight
Just me and my Maker in this cold moonlight

This is me on the eve of an ending
To what I've known's been constant for a year
And I'm so scared of this pain that I'll be sending
Sometimes I just want to run away in fear

But I just want to be lonely tonight
Just me and my Maker in this cold moonlight

No, I haven't heard your voice in two weeks now
And anticipation's been wearing me thin
And I just can't help but wonderin', baby, if somehow
We could tear these pages out and begin again

Because I just want to be lonely tonight
Just me and my Maker in this cold moonlight
I just want to be lonely tonight
With no one around to see the sight
Of me lying here

'Cause this is the hardest thing I've ever done before
I said, this is the hardest thing I've ever done before
And I don't want to be lonely

But I won't be lonely tonight
Because my Maker's holding me

It's a list!

1. I really should be studying right now. Like, really. I have three exams tomorrow (one in every class), none of which I'm all that prepared for. However, I'm staying true to form and procrastinating like no one else can.

2. Speaking of procrastinating, I spent a fascinating three hours last night looking at the Bob Jones University website. (I was supposed to be writing a 4-page paper that was due today.) All I can say is, I'm glad I was always a normal homeschooler and was not forced to attend a school like that. I would be the most rebellious student there. No? Check out the "student expectations." Um, this is college. Aren't we supposed to be adults?

3. Today is the most gorgeous day ever, all of my friends are sitting outside...and I have to be inside studying. UGH.

4. I might be going camping this weekend. I'm pretty excited. It should definitely be an interesting experience. (Think: me, Christy[?], Kristi, Mike, Tuna, and Johnnie; a tent, s'mores, and lots of outdoorsy-ness. Yes, interesting.)

5. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate statistics?

6. I have my schedule figured out for next semester! I think, at least. Marriage & Family, Social Psychology, Sociology, Ethics, Benevolence, and MY LAST SEMESTER OF SPANISH!!! (I'm trying to make up for the horrible boringness of this semester with the two especially interesting psych classes. I'm excited.)

7. To everyone who keeps asking: I am not going to the Sadie Hawkins. I don't ask guys out, and I don't support Greek clubs. Thanks. :)

Enough of the listing. Back to work!

Lesson of the Year: Abbreviated

“Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as your eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open
Say what you need to say.“
- “Say” by John Mayer

Cliché as it seems, it has been, by far, the number one lesson of my year.

(I'm feeling at tad contemplative at the moment...)