Small enough?

Listening To: Breakdown by Mae

I feel like I've been more private than usual lately. There's just all this random stuff going on in my head, but I don't feel like I can fully explain any of it without sounding ridiculous. So I don't. It makes me so thankful that I can trust God with it.

I had a hard time going to sleep last night, due to a combination of Jazzman's crack coffee and a brain on overdrive. I eventually just grabbed Houston and started listening to music, hoping it would relax me some. (FYI, Houston is my Zune, for those of you who didn't know.) A song I had never heard before came on at one point. It was called "Small Enough" by Nichole Nordeman. One thing I like about listening to music at night--it gives me a chance to really listen to it. I appreciate the music so much more, and I can finally listen to the lyrics more closely. In other words, it's when it becomes more than just background noise. Anyway, I started listening to this song, and the lyrics were really profound to me (besides, it's just a beautiful song in general).

"Oh, great God
Be small enough to hear me now
There were times when I was crying
From the dark of Daniel’s den
I had asked you once or twice
If you would part the sea again
Tonight I do not need a fiery pillar in the sky
Just want to know You’re gonna hold me if I start to cry

Oh, great God
Be small enough to hear me now

Oh, great God
Be close enough to feel You now
(Oh, great God, be close to me)
There have been moments
When I could not face Goliath on my own
And how could I forget
We marched around our share of Jerichos
But I will not be setting out
A fleece for you tonight
Just wanna know that everything will be alright

Oh, great God
Be close enough to feel me now
All praise and all the honor be
To the God of ancient mysteries
Whose every sign and wonder
Turn the pages of our history
But tonight my heart is heavy
And I cannot keep from whispering this prayer
Are you there?

And I know you could leave writing
On the wall that’s just for me
Or send wisdom while I’m sleeping
Like in Solomon’s sweet dreams
But I don’t need the strength of Sampson
Or a chariot in the end
Just wanna know that you still know
How many hairs are on my head

Oh, great God
(Are you small enough?)
Be small enough to hear me now"

I thought that was a really interesting concept. Of course God is big--we know all the great things He can do. We know how powerful He is, how majestic, everything like that. But is He small enough to relate to us? To understand us, to care about the silly little things in our lives? It amazes me that the answer is yes. It's so reassuring to know that He isn't going to get annoyed with me if I keep going to Him about the same stupid thing over and over again. The way He sees it, if it matters that much to me, then it matters that much to Him. Yet He's GOD. Big enough to handle my problems, and small enough to care. How awesome is that?!?