Let Me Feel You Shine

This song is my life right now.

"Let Me Feel You Shine"
David Crowder Band

This place is trying to break my belief
But my faith is bigger than all I can see
What I need is redemption
What I need is for You for to put me back on my feet

I swear I'm trying to give everything
But I feel I'm falling, oh make me believe
What I need is resurrection
What I need is for You to put me back on my feet

If I could feel You shine Your perpetual light
Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight
If I could feel You feel You shine
Oh, let me feel You shine
So beautiful and warm
So beautiful and bright
Like a sun comin' out of a rainy sky
Oh let me feel You shine, oh
Let me feel You shine

I lift the knife to the thing I love most
Praying You'll come so I can have both
What I need is for You to touch me
What I need is for You to be the thing that I need

God, I need a Savior
O come, Generous King
O God, I need a Savior
To come rescue me

Life freaks me out sometimes. God freaks me out sometimes. Most of the time, lately. He's worth it, but that doesn't mean it's not the scariest thing ever.

I'm done.

Listening to: "Small Enough" by Nichole Nordeman
Once upon a time, oh, about 2.5 years ago, I blogged about this song. (What I'd give to go back to the simplicity of freshman year. Relatively speaking, anyway.) It's always funny to me how songs from the past can come back and be so perfect and relevant for my life right now. It's definitely a good one, and my constant prayer lately, it seems.

So, life. It'd be cool if you'd start making sense sometime really, really soon. Just a thought, because I don't know how much more I can handle.

"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from Your presence or take Your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your salvation and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me."

Psalm 51:10-12

I am so done with this summer.